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Exuberant, The Tour Guide

By on Jul 7, 2015 in Blog | 0 comments

It was my first visit to this new museum, and I liked what I saw from the start, actual little rooms set up just like they would have been in eras long ago. I could actually walk into them and through them. I didn’t have to peak through glass and read a bunch of signs. I could try to imagine what it might have been like to live back then and survive on the minimal implements and entertainment these settings provided. “Feel free to touch anything you’d like, unless there’s a sign that says do not touch,” came an accented voice from someone behind me I hadn’t even realized was there. I did not yet know that this would be my quirky but exuberant tour guide, popping up on me throughout my visit over and over again. “Oh, ok. Thank you,” I said as I looked back at him quickly and then back to the artifacts. I didn’t have much time to spare on this last-minute field trip I decided to afford...

Becoming Whole … From Half (Part 1)

By on Feb 22, 2014 in Blog | 0 comments

“Make that noise again,” I quietly beseeched my sister while I lay in bed, eyes closed, just beginning to wake one morning long, long ago. “What noise?” she asked from the floor beside our bed. “The noise you were making yesterday,” I answered, expecting her to know exactly which memory I was trying to recreate from the day before just because I was thinking it. She adjusted her play and asked, “Like this?” “No, that’s too loud. It was softer,” I answered, growing slightly annoyed that her inability to recreate what I was remembering was beginning to wake me from the comfy fog I didn’t want to exit. She adjusted again and asked again, “Like this?” “No, that’s not it either. Just do what you were doing yesterday.” “I don’t remember what I was doing yesterday.”...

Questions About Abortion?

By on Jan 31, 2014 in Resources | 0 comments

After reading some or all of my blog, do you have any questions that I haven’t addressed? As someone who has experienced the trauma of abortion, hidden the shame for two decades, gone through healing for myself, learned how to talk to my children about it, and currently help lead others through healing, I can provide a wide range of help from many different perspectives. You can comment as “anonymous,” and I will respect your privacy by not responding to anyone by name. I may be able to reply quickly in the comments, or I might address some questions in future blog posts. If you or someone you know has had an abortion at some point in the past, and you want to help them recover, please remember this. There is a spectrum of readiness. Some people will be ready as soon as they learn of the existence of such help, and others will be shocked that anyone is talking about...

#22 – Life & Love for ALL

By on Jan 22, 2014 in Blog, Resources | 0 comments

I was privileged to witness people of all ages and generations, all races, all religions as well as non-religious, from all over the country and even the world, march for a cause today that is not political or religious, but a cause for humanity, the cause of life. I don’t have much time to write before I board the bus to head back home, so for now I will let pictures speak for themselves. Please be encouraged that life is worth fighting for, and this is NOT a losing battle, NOT an impossible cause to overcome. In fact more and more people are joining the ranks every year, especially the younger generations, and I am so encouraged by them! Thank you all for reading and following my series, my story. I pray that it has been helpful for you to understand this issue and cause from many different perspectives, and that it may give you courage to DO something toward this fight, and DO...

#21 – To DO

By on Jan 21, 2014 in Blog, Resources | 0 comments

I’ve been praying for God to do some amazing things over the past few decades since He captured my heart, and it’s been awesome to watch Him exceed my expectations. Transforming me from a silent and fearful prisoner of war of sorts into a bold and outspoken blog warrior sharing my abortion story potentially with the world has been one of those moments. One of my favorite verses is Ephesians 3:20-21, “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” “To do” is such a simple phrase. It’s so general and by itself doesn’t lead me to much thought-provoking excitement. But the fuller meaning of this phrase in the Greek Lexicon is so much more exciting. It means to produce,...

#20 – Some Dreams Already Come True

By on Jan 20, 2014 in Blog, Resources | 0 comments

On this 20th day of remembering and honoring my son, I found myself standing next to a 20-year old young man at a peaceful prayer vigil this morning in front of an abortion clinic in Washington DC, on this Martin Luther King Jr. Day. The symbolism of all of this has so many layers, but I will focus on the young man, whose name is Sean. I captured Sean’s prayerful shadow along with his rosary as we began our journey here this week leading us up to the March for Life on Wednesday. I am not Catholic, but I’m traveling with a mostly Catholic group. We agree and believe wholeheartedly in the sanctity of life, and so I was honored to be amongst them today and to witness their beautiful prayers. One such prayer cut to my heart and brought me to tears because of my abortion choice 22 years ago. The prayer is titled, “The Litany for the Unborn.” It starts with a leader...

#19 – A Countenance of Joy & Love

By on Jan 19, 2014 in Blog, Resources | 0 comments

As I prepare to head out on this 40th Sanctity of Human Life Sunday to share my abortion story at a new church, I can’t help but revisit a familiar conflict. Since I’ve begun to share my story publicly, I have questioned my own countenance of JOY as I relate the knowledge of my son’s home in heaven and the certainty of someday meeting him. My concern has been to convey proper and right emotions, fitting my actions and beliefs. It’s such a humble and delicate place of conflicting emotions to impart. I have been reconciled to God because of His amazing grace, for which I will always remain humbly grateful. The joy that I cannot hide comes from this reconciliation and also from the knowledge that my baby still lives, only in heaven. How do I know that my baby and all the other millions of babies are in heaven? King David in the Bible shares with us the loss of a...

#18 – Ducks in a Row

By on Jan 18, 2014 in Blog, Resources | 0 comments

This may make absolutely no sense, but in my mind I felt that I needed to create the perfect life scenario, you know, get my ducks all in a row, before I could purposely get pregnant this time and have my first child. I felt that by doing this I could validate the loss and sacrifice of my first child, my son. It was as if I could make my abortion decision ok by my future actions. I know now that this is impossible. But it took a message from God to get through to my brain that my logic was not adding up. The criteria I set in place to achieve in order for me to give myself permission to get pregnant again were these five things, be married, have a house, have a good job, have health insurance, and be out of debt. I was getting so close to fulfilling this list, but I was one short still, my husband and I were not out of debt. Over the years of attaining the majority of these goals, I...